I should be tutoring, but apparently students are feeling super confident about this semester right now and do not want their appointments. Thus, I blog. So lately God’s really been teaching me about the importance and necessity of encouragement-as friends, family, believers-and I have to say it’s been humbling. I could definitely be a better encourager; I’m working on it. However, with this lesson has come a backlash that’s been bothering me. I’m going to seek advice here knowing that you faithful few who read this will not respond, but hey, a girl can dream.
My dilemma is this: When is it ok to give up?
I don’t mean, I feel like giving up on life. I mean that I’m getting exhausted and discouraged by continually reaching out to someone who doesn’t want to meet you halfway. Sometimes I’m that girl who when faced with encouragement during a trying time says, “thanks” then still feels the same way for a bit, BUT I acknowledge that a well-meaning soul cared about me. It’s just really hard sometimes caring and not feeling like it matters. I know it does, but what do you do when you don’t feel like it does? I honestly want to cut my losses and find somewhere else to invest because quite frankly, this is somewhat painful. But I never want to be guilty of giving up on someone! Have you ever been here? What happens next? A dear friend of mine actually counseled me to step back and see if said drainer of motivation cherishes me at all, but I don’t know how to do that because I’m afraid that I already know the answers doing that will reveal-that I don’t really matter to them and I care a whole lot more than they do. Being a good friend is hard. I know that, but it’s possible. So should should I continue trying to be a good friend and suffer silently, or suck it up and move on because they can’t seem to comprehend how to be a good friend? You’re probably thinking a. is the valid option. Fine. I’ll accept it, but how do I deal with it? I want to be an encouragement, I really do (yes, I am fully aware that this post is the antithesis of encouragement [I promise I will actually be encouraging once I purge this from my system]) but in order to be successful at it, I think I might have to let this go. Unfortunate, this is.