Good God, I feel empty now, but no one found out and I never touched her. I’m trusting less in my defense, if there’s no difference in the things that happen in my head and happen in my bed. Oh God… I’m shaking like a leaf. I’m shaking…
For twenty-seven years now I’ve been waiting. For twenty-seven years now I’ve been keeping my end. But every single gift I ever gave You was just a bribe, so I could get You to give me what I wanted. It’s all kisses and silver. I never cared for innocence, just the appearance.
If only You’d wash me, ’cause I can’t see the stains. My God, I’m so scared, ’cause I’m fractured but I don’t feel the breaks. Have I loved too many daughters to ever be whole? I’m ashamed that You love me. Send grace for the hearts that I stole.