maybe in a sense that means i should be warned myself. but i can’t help it; i’m curious.
[ it’s about to get real up in here folks.]
here’s what i’m pondering. is it possible to interact with and love and grow with people and only inherit the good they have, or by doing those things is it inevitable that you also gain some of their limitations and unknowingly submit to some of their weaknesses?
i’m wrestling with this now because originally i would’ve shouted an emphatic “no” at you for even asking, but unfortunately i can see the latter suspicion i suggested occurring in my life.
for example, if there is a confident person who becomes friends with someone who struggles with self-worth, but has a heart for the Lord. is it at all possible for person 1 to learn from and develop more deeply that heart for the Lord without developing issues of self-consciousness and self-worth? OR by living life closely with them will person 1, INEVITABLY be affected by–cultivate their own versions of– and be forced to face those issues?
it’s possible to be affected, i know that. i think i’m experiencing something like that. but my struggle is the “is it inevitable”? because if the answer is “no” and it isn’t, then does that mean i’m just weak? or maybe i’m not loving people rightly? or i’m really bad at relationships?
i don’t know, but i know i’m driving me a little crazy. Job 4:6 says, “is not your fear of God your confidence, and the integrity of your ways your hope?” and in the spirit of keeping it real, friends, i’m frustratingly losing sight of the me who knew and claimed that truth, more often than i like admitting.